Monday, May 21, 2012

Who do you THINK you are?


For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully
 and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well. 
(Psalm 139:13, 14 NKJV)

 
I've got evidence 
I've got confidence 
I'm a conqueror 
I know that I win 
I know who I am 
God wrote it in his plan for me 

I know my identity, my name is victory!!  
Lyrics to "My Name Is Victory" By Jonathan Nelson & Purpose
 
 

I recently finished up a small group bible study on "Trusting God" by Girlfriends in God ministry. In our last week of 
study there was a powerful devotional by Sharon Jaynes. In it she spoke of her struggles with infertility and how 
through it all she was still able to rest in the great plans God had for her life. Her "aha" moment came when the Lord 
told her to look up the meaning of her name. When she looked up the meaning of her name it actually meant - a fertile 
valley near Mount Carmel. While her doctors report read infertile, God reminded her that he made her fertile before she 
was even born. Read the devotion here: http://www.girlfriendsingod.com/2011/gods-great-plans-for-you/

I was very encouraged from her devotional and while she didn't prompt us, I decided to do my own research on my 
name. I'm often embarrassed to say that my mother actually did name me after "THE" LaToya Jackson **sigh and 
rolls eyes** It was a pretty and popular name at the time so against my grandmothers wishes she jumped on the 
bandwagon! Considering this, I didn't have high hopes for what I would find BUT when I looked it up, I was blown away. 

LaToya is actually of Spanish origin and means "victorious one" and "woman to be praised/honored" and the icing on the cake??? Well, my middle name, Nicole is of Greek origin and means "people of victory"!!! So my name literally is VICTORY!
So that means every time my name is spoken God is allowing victory, praise and honor to be spoken over my life. That simple discovery silenced all my doubts and insecurities that weighed heavy on my heart for years and erased away all the "labels" that others had placed on me.

So, I'm no longer embarrassed about my name nor do I find it a coincidence that my mother named me LaToya Nicole.
You see God knew before I was formed that due to a birth injury I would face doubt about my physical abilities. He knew that my father would abandon us, leaving me to struggle with insecurities and self worth issues. That my desire for perfection and control would leave me feeling like a failure when life didn't turn out the way I wanted. So he gave me my name to remind me of who I REALLY am! Before I could even speak my name he had already called me to be a Victorious woman, worthy of praise and honor. For that I am forever grateful.

Now when the enemy says "You're not worth it" I can confidently answer back, God says "I'm a woman meant to be praised" and when I'm believing God for breakthrough in my life and he tells me "It will never happen" I can confidently say “Its already done, I have the victory".

So who do you THINK you are? Discover what God says about you FIRST. Know that he took careful consideration in forming you, you are not an accident, you were created for a purpose and a plan. 



5 comments:

  1. What a great Post :)

    I have been so very blessed by the Trusting God book too :)

    I am so in awe of how everyday we discover another new nugget of joy of our heavenly Father. My name - Anita, means grace, and my middle name is, Joy, and my maiden name is King! So I am reminded everyday, that I belong to the King of Kings and how He has blessed me with the gift of grace and everlasting joy :)

    I love the meaning behind your name - beautiful. What a lovely gift!

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  2. Thanks Anita! Oh I love the meaning of your name too:-) Blessings!

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  3. Toya,

    This made me cry. It was so very beautiful and so are you! I just told Anita about the meaning of my name this week. Thank you for a great post.

    When I was younger my friends would always look up the meanings to their names. Each one would have such a beautiful meaning....grace, helper, noble, splended, exalted....then they would come to mine and I would cringe.

    My name in the Greek origin means "Salty" I remember the laughs that would always get. Now as an adult in my walk with Christ I love the meaning because we are always supposed to be salt to others. Matthew 5:13 "You are the salt of the earth." I just found out the English meaning for my name is moon. I like that too :-)

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  4. Thanks Salina..I cried while writing it as God gave me the words!
    You definitely shine like the moon girl!

    Bless you:-)

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  5. Wow, what a powerful post!!! It not only has a very meaningful purpose but it's a fun challenge to others to embrace God's purpose for us.

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